Wednesday, November 4, 2009

StiLL in the progrAm!!!

OmG.. thank you!!!

i don't know how or what was going through my brain while i was taking that exam.. all I knew was that i was struggling. thinking at a much higher level and applying everything to a patient. diagnosing a patient when given a certain scenario in a short amount of time. OMG! i cried for 3 days after that exam. only to calm down and attempt to focus on another quiz for research.. =\

Grad school is hard. I'm not going to lie. I've been reading and reading.. I want my life back. I miss seeing people. Friends, family, co-workers. sigh.. sometimes, i wonder if the sacrifice is worth it at times.. blAh.

anyways, back to techy things.. this is the only thing keeping me sane.. since i forgot to save the iWeb file on my old MBP before the crash. my Me.com site will be retiring, and I'd have to start a new one unfortunately. I'll have to reorganize, find a new direction maybe.. in the meantime, i meant to post this a while back, but didn't have the time..




enjoy... if anyone can help me figure out how set up a page where people can download recorded audio lectures using iWeb and Me, that would be fantastic! a turn around would be cool also using a host.. and i can link ppl over there from my current site.. ^__^

thAnks!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

New Goal: to Pass

Grad SchooL. my goal is just to pass. that's it...

as far as Patho went. my grade is a B+. It's gonna be an adjustment on how to read those questions. stupid mistakes. GRRrR..

research is gonna be another one. i thought i was doing fairly decent with the postings until the midterm. which i FAiLED miserably with a 72.. my 92 average dropped down to a B-.. RAH i'm barely passing.. o__O.. OMG... still truckin.. gotta keep trying.. i have to make up for it now..

i'm gonna slow it down next semester, pending if i pass this semester. i'm praying, hoping, i don't get kicked out. pharmacology is next. i know it's hard. i NEED to go back to work. i have to apply what i learned. and i am broke =( .. i thought i was gonna be able to do work and go to school at the same time this semester. certainly not the case. GRAD SCHOOL is DEFINITELY wAY different... OMG.. wtf did i do to myself?!

migraines here and there. but not as bad as before. i'm learning to manage stress better i guess? i'm eating differently. chocolate is definitely a trigger =( .. so are raw onions so i have to avoid those in salads.. sigh..

let's hope i improve my grades and i don't get kicked out of the program.. mom's gonna be disappointed, i'll be a total mess if i get kicked out.. and that's a sign that it was never meant to be.. yup..

as for other things, my geekiness came out and i was determined to figure this out.. how to record desktop activity with audio unlike the screen recording capabilities on quicktime X sans audio. thank you fellow youtube users for showing me the way. and here's the end result from last night after my first video lecture for patho.. my brain needed a medical break.. and needed something more techy.. LOL..


so what do you think..

i'll probably end up doing how to videos someday.. cause i'm a dork.. LOL.. yay

now on to part 2 of the video lecture and then to 10 imaginary patients.. rAHhh..

Saturday, October 3, 2009

pAniC MoDE?!



Everything that could've gone wrong went wrong!

Just as I was finishing up chapter 19. Word crashed. I was like.. wat the heck?! it froze? you know that spinning beach ball on the mac. I didn't want to do a Force Quit so I let it sit for 10 minutes. Nothing. The last save was about 15 minutes ago, which was 2 slides.. ARGH.. maybe auto recovery would pick it up? I have to continue with my work.. so i force quit..

auto recover picked up where i left off, and i saved a copy of it.. as i'm scrolling down, i see the formatting is frozen. text-wrapping is stuck from the previous page. there is no picture there, but word thinks there is one. i tried copying and pasting the file to a new blank document but it just said that it's unable to save file - not enough memory. wAT?! everything is in read only mode?! wat the heck...

my office databases are also corrupt. they can't be found.. so i begin the process of uninstalling. meaning. deleting pLists and preferences, microsoft user data, etc. ugGh.. in the meantime.. i scramble to go to my iMac and see if the word document can be salvaged. nope. faiL. that fiLe is corrupt. and my MS office on the MBP is messed up when it froze. uGH... i decided to ditch chapter 19 and move on to chapter 20. i didn't know how to recover that file aside from starting all over.. i don't have time.. it's 4pm already!

6pm: i decided to start printing my other notes from chapters 12-18. at the same time, i'm going back and forth between my iMac and my macbook pro with the rolling office chair, one desk to the next, back and forth.. i'm multi-tasking..

730pm: warning on the printer. no black ink. both the 220 and 221. wtf?! i'm like great!! ugH.. hMM still early, i can make it to staples.. lemme just make sure.. if we have paper.. NOPE, none either.. perfect... so i jump into the shower.. 8pm out the door off to staples.. i'm very picky about my paper. 98 bright, 22lb. normally i'd go thicker, but i'm broke. i have no job. the ink is my priority right now. they finally have the Canon 220 combo pack in stock. last one just for me. i took it. $50. instead of $60 for 3 individual ones. got the multi 221 pack also. another $50. got some colored pens too.. they didnt have the ones i normally get, but i'll try these. hopefully, these will last me. they also seem brighter, and livelier. as long as they're the anti-check fraud pens from Uni-Ball. i'm ^__^ i only use the green ink, but they never sell them in bulk so i have to buy the pack of colors.. LOL.. sigh, at least i think this time, these colors look like they're legible..

840pm: back to the house. dragged the box of paper down the basement. installed the ink cartridges. back to work... thank you natural keyboard. eases some of the pain from all the typing i've been doing all week. @__@. i have a feeling, CTS is gonna be torture this year..

1130pm: figured out how to fix the corrupt word file. convert it to RTF by using save as. i figured, it simplifies the format, right? maybe it'll remove that weird text wrapping. i tried it out. then copy and paste that to a blank word doc. hAZZAH! fixEd! i didn't need to start all over.. thank gooodness.. that was over 6 pages worth of notes.. and i still had a while to go

230am: finally finished.. apparently, i tend to elaborate on a lot of things. 6 pages ended up as 16 pages.. DONE!

uGh.. time to study. read my notes. technically doing those notes 12-20, i've been studying. essentially, i really have to review chapters 4-11 more than anything. right?

i have take the exam sunday morning. so i can read for research.. and do my research hw and quiz by monday.. i have class on tuesday.. @__@ ugh.. this is NuTs..

Disorders of the Immune Response

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The Cell

smallest functional unit necessary for life. so tiny, but sooooo very important..

why do we go over this every single year?!

it's because most of the disease processes are initiated at the cellular level and from there a disease can affect an organ, particular tissue type, or even the entire organism...

they are responsible for processing our food, turning it into NRG (energy, get it? lol), synthesize complex molecules, and of course replication if they are capable of doing so..

so here we go..
Cell and Tissue Characteristics

Advanced Pathophysiology

so this is a preview of pretty much of what's taking most of my time, why I'm not working anymore. why i'm so jittery, and anxious, such a spazz. so this is chapter 7.. LOL.. i'm suppose to have chapters 4-20.. i only have 4-13 complete.. i have a long way to go.. before my first exam that covers 17 chapters this Saturday.. uGH.. passing is an 80. not to mention the case studies that were also done.. LOL.. a lot of typing.. rAH..


PathoCh7 Genetic Disorders



Case60 Down Syndrome

EKG Review

how to read EKGs. my notes from the Basic Arrhythmia Course during orientation