Wednesday, November 4, 2009

StiLL in the progrAm!!!

OmG.. thank you!!!

i don't know how or what was going through my brain while i was taking that exam.. all I knew was that i was struggling. thinking at a much higher level and applying everything to a patient. diagnosing a patient when given a certain scenario in a short amount of time. OMG! i cried for 3 days after that exam. only to calm down and attempt to focus on another quiz for research.. =\

Grad school is hard. I'm not going to lie. I've been reading and reading.. I want my life back. I miss seeing people. Friends, family, co-workers. sigh.. sometimes, i wonder if the sacrifice is worth it at times.. blAh.

anyways, back to techy things.. this is the only thing keeping me sane.. since i forgot to save the iWeb file on my old MBP before the crash. my Me.com site will be retiring, and I'd have to start a new one unfortunately. I'll have to reorganize, find a new direction maybe.. in the meantime, i meant to post this a while back, but didn't have the time..




enjoy... if anyone can help me figure out how set up a page where people can download recorded audio lectures using iWeb and Me, that would be fantastic! a turn around would be cool also using a host.. and i can link ppl over there from my current site.. ^__^

thAnks!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

New Goal: to Pass

Grad SchooL. my goal is just to pass. that's it...

as far as Patho went. my grade is a B+. It's gonna be an adjustment on how to read those questions. stupid mistakes. GRRrR..

research is gonna be another one. i thought i was doing fairly decent with the postings until the midterm. which i FAiLED miserably with a 72.. my 92 average dropped down to a B-.. RAH i'm barely passing.. o__O.. OMG... still truckin.. gotta keep trying.. i have to make up for it now..

i'm gonna slow it down next semester, pending if i pass this semester. i'm praying, hoping, i don't get kicked out. pharmacology is next. i know it's hard. i NEED to go back to work. i have to apply what i learned. and i am broke =( .. i thought i was gonna be able to do work and go to school at the same time this semester. certainly not the case. GRAD SCHOOL is DEFINITELY wAY different... OMG.. wtf did i do to myself?!

migraines here and there. but not as bad as before. i'm learning to manage stress better i guess? i'm eating differently. chocolate is definitely a trigger =( .. so are raw onions so i have to avoid those in salads.. sigh..

let's hope i improve my grades and i don't get kicked out of the program.. mom's gonna be disappointed, i'll be a total mess if i get kicked out.. and that's a sign that it was never meant to be.. yup..

as for other things, my geekiness came out and i was determined to figure this out.. how to record desktop activity with audio unlike the screen recording capabilities on quicktime X sans audio. thank you fellow youtube users for showing me the way. and here's the end result from last night after my first video lecture for patho.. my brain needed a medical break.. and needed something more techy.. LOL..


so what do you think..

i'll probably end up doing how to videos someday.. cause i'm a dork.. LOL.. yay

now on to part 2 of the video lecture and then to 10 imaginary patients.. rAHhh..

Saturday, October 3, 2009

pAniC MoDE?!



Everything that could've gone wrong went wrong!

Just as I was finishing up chapter 19. Word crashed. I was like.. wat the heck?! it froze? you know that spinning beach ball on the mac. I didn't want to do a Force Quit so I let it sit for 10 minutes. Nothing. The last save was about 15 minutes ago, which was 2 slides.. ARGH.. maybe auto recovery would pick it up? I have to continue with my work.. so i force quit..

auto recover picked up where i left off, and i saved a copy of it.. as i'm scrolling down, i see the formatting is frozen. text-wrapping is stuck from the previous page. there is no picture there, but word thinks there is one. i tried copying and pasting the file to a new blank document but it just said that it's unable to save file - not enough memory. wAT?! everything is in read only mode?! wat the heck...

my office databases are also corrupt. they can't be found.. so i begin the process of uninstalling. meaning. deleting pLists and preferences, microsoft user data, etc. ugGh.. in the meantime.. i scramble to go to my iMac and see if the word document can be salvaged. nope. faiL. that fiLe is corrupt. and my MS office on the MBP is messed up when it froze. uGH... i decided to ditch chapter 19 and move on to chapter 20. i didn't know how to recover that file aside from starting all over.. i don't have time.. it's 4pm already!

6pm: i decided to start printing my other notes from chapters 12-18. at the same time, i'm going back and forth between my iMac and my macbook pro with the rolling office chair, one desk to the next, back and forth.. i'm multi-tasking..

730pm: warning on the printer. no black ink. both the 220 and 221. wtf?! i'm like great!! ugH.. hMM still early, i can make it to staples.. lemme just make sure.. if we have paper.. NOPE, none either.. perfect... so i jump into the shower.. 8pm out the door off to staples.. i'm very picky about my paper. 98 bright, 22lb. normally i'd go thicker, but i'm broke. i have no job. the ink is my priority right now. they finally have the Canon 220 combo pack in stock. last one just for me. i took it. $50. instead of $60 for 3 individual ones. got the multi 221 pack also. another $50. got some colored pens too.. they didnt have the ones i normally get, but i'll try these. hopefully, these will last me. they also seem brighter, and livelier. as long as they're the anti-check fraud pens from Uni-Ball. i'm ^__^ i only use the green ink, but they never sell them in bulk so i have to buy the pack of colors.. LOL.. sigh, at least i think this time, these colors look like they're legible..

840pm: back to the house. dragged the box of paper down the basement. installed the ink cartridges. back to work... thank you natural keyboard. eases some of the pain from all the typing i've been doing all week. @__@. i have a feeling, CTS is gonna be torture this year..

1130pm: figured out how to fix the corrupt word file. convert it to RTF by using save as. i figured, it simplifies the format, right? maybe it'll remove that weird text wrapping. i tried it out. then copy and paste that to a blank word doc. hAZZAH! fixEd! i didn't need to start all over.. thank gooodness.. that was over 6 pages worth of notes.. and i still had a while to go

230am: finally finished.. apparently, i tend to elaborate on a lot of things. 6 pages ended up as 16 pages.. DONE!

uGh.. time to study. read my notes. technically doing those notes 12-20, i've been studying. essentially, i really have to review chapters 4-11 more than anything. right?

i have take the exam sunday morning. so i can read for research.. and do my research hw and quiz by monday.. i have class on tuesday.. @__@ ugh.. this is NuTs..

Disorders of the Immune Response

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The Cell

smallest functional unit necessary for life. so tiny, but sooooo very important..

why do we go over this every single year?!

it's because most of the disease processes are initiated at the cellular level and from there a disease can affect an organ, particular tissue type, or even the entire organism...

they are responsible for processing our food, turning it into NRG (energy, get it? lol), synthesize complex molecules, and of course replication if they are capable of doing so..

so here we go..
Cell and Tissue Characteristics

Advanced Pathophysiology

so this is a preview of pretty much of what's taking most of my time, why I'm not working anymore. why i'm so jittery, and anxious, such a spazz. so this is chapter 7.. LOL.. i'm suppose to have chapters 4-20.. i only have 4-13 complete.. i have a long way to go.. before my first exam that covers 17 chapters this Saturday.. uGH.. passing is an 80. not to mention the case studies that were also done.. LOL.. a lot of typing.. rAH..


PathoCh7 Genetic Disorders



Case60 Down Syndrome

EKG Review

how to read EKGs. my notes from the Basic Arrhythmia Course during orientation

Monday, September 28, 2009

Volume 2 - Last of the Unfinished Med Surge Chronicles

Preview Vol2 Gastrointestinal

Grad SchooL

back in schooL.. lol.. which means..

finding more creative ways of studying to keep me going.. hahaha.. maybe i'll repost my study guides.. LOL.. should be interesting.

Here's the fiRst one.


Preview Vol1 Genitourinary

Thursday, June 4, 2009

An Understanding.

so everyone is entitled to their opinion, here's mine.

Days short of my one year anniversary as a RN, I find myself watching from the sidelines the passion my fellow co-workers have for their jobs and their patients...

As most of you have heard, as of 7am yesterday, 3rd day of Jun 2009, the unionized nurses of EHMC were locked out. As a result, informational picketing commenced. At first, I didn't quite understand what was going on. All I knew was that, from then on, I was unemployed.

  

Staffing issues were the deal breaker for negotiations. Safe staffing. Numerous times, I've witnessed the floor file for unsafe staffing because of the "ridiculous" nurse to patient ratio. Now, what is the ideal patient ratio? Well, it depends on the acuity, the level of care a patient needs. Nowadays, people are becoming more sick with multiple diagnoses and treatments. We use a program called "OptiLink" that helps us organize staffing as well as project census with the ratio. According to the site it's a "Patient Classification System" designed to:
  • display real patient demand, enabling you to balance assignments: meet cost, quality, and staff satisfaction goals on each shift
  • measure real-time acuity adjusted actual census: deploy and manage required staff precisely and efficiently
We are able to assign Low, Medium, High, and Extreme to a patient depending on the classifications the staff have developed. High is assigned if the patient falls into one of the factors, the most common are: total dependent care with ADLs, high risk for falls or injuries, procedure or treatment requiring more than one hour. Don't be surprised if a lot of these patients are complete care. They can't wash, feed, or even turn themselves. Some of them sundown to the point where they become violent, where we have to call security. Even then, there's not enough staff in security to cover the rest of the hospital. Imagine RNs spending a lot of time trying to de-escalate the situation, risking their lives to help the patient who has no control and while protecting the rest of the floor and staff. The time spent away from the rest of the patients accumulates, and by that time, the nurse has missed their break, and is now trying to catch up with the rest of their duties before the shift is over. Rushing. An increase in staffing would allow the nurses to distribute the patients more evenly. It's safer. So basically, what I'm saying, is that why are we using this system, a lot of the patients are actually HIGH, and staffing doesn't provide more RNs? Not only RNs, but the PCAs and probably sitters also. It's hard.



The claims of average nursing salary over $100k ?!?! What is that? I don't see it. If they do, it's like 14% of them. Those RNs have earned it. Their 30+ years experience. The lives they've saved and helped. The new RNs they've trained and retained. The MAGNET recognition 2 years in a row!!! 

Now about overtime. Overtime happens because of the acuity. So many things have to be done in such a short amount of time. More people to available to work, would mean less overtime. Safer staffing.



Extra 30 minutes without pay? Sure. 15minutes before and 15minutes after. How is that going to work with families and their schedule? Kids have to go to school, someone has to pick them up, babysitting?

How come more $$$ was spent to hire temp RNs? They have room, board, transportation. As I saw them enter and leave via coach bus. I saw the ones leaving looking so tired and overwhelmed. They're called "scabs." I don't know why; I'm assuming a metaphor. They are nurses, too, doing their job. I quite don't agree with the term. It's so harsh. Perhaps, it was the experience from 3yrs ago where the temp RNs hired cursed, gave the finger, and were mean to them. I do hope they understand how stressful the job is. Patient population has dramatically changed from 20 years ago. 



As for the media, the proposed contract that was offered to the union... unacceptable. The use of vague words leaves management to use loop holes. What is the difference between "no changes" and "no significant changes"? It's like handing over a blank check.. too dangerous.. would you sign something without reading the fine print?





i'm done for now...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

First Adventures with a HD Video Camera

the first day I got the camera...

after a few hours of charging the battery and half an hour of cutting and pasting and adding text with iMovie 08.. here's the end result hahaha.. let me know.. unfortunately i can't figure out how to make the video smaller or make the blog page wider.. so i'm placing the link instead.. feel free to comment.. HAHA, this is a learning process after all..


next up.. cooking videos perhaps? pics? my adventures in  the kitchen? the process from finding fresh ingredients, to the chopping block, the cooking, and serving.. HAHAHA.. i'll drag the rest of the family into the adventures.. some one has to hold the camera.. or better yet, some one has to demonstrate how to do these things.. =D

Monday, May 11, 2009

Celebrating Mother's Day 2009

mothers and their children, nieces, nephews, and grandchildren on a beautiful spring day having a bbq at home. 

1. the food: the filipino finger foods. lumpia, bbq, sweet corn, chicken, lechon kawali + various fruits and appetizers
From Mother's Day 2009

2. pancit: rice noodle dish with veggies and protein, in this case, chicken
From Mother's Day 2009

3. sweet plantains. delicious!
From Mother's Day 2009

4. fruit salad: watermelon, cantaloupe, honey dew, pineapple, blackberries, and strawberries
From Mother's Day 2009

5. chicken salad + pasta: slightly tart to freshen the palette
From Mother's Day 2009

6. who knew there were papayas?! those strawberries are uber ripe..
From Mother's Day 2009

7. upon seeing the big lens on the camera, my dear niece begins her modeling career. HAHA. kids are so cute.
From Mother's Day 2009

8. new summer flavor: peaches, berries and cream...
From Mother's Day 2009

7. proper way to eat finger foods. ^___^
From Mother's Day 2009

8. matching cousin and little brother
From Mother's Day 2009

9. bbq in the front yard / patio
From Mother's Day 2009

10. flowers
From Mother's Day 2009

11. the boys ganging up on their uncle
From Mother's Day 2009

12. i need a break..
From Mother's Day 2009

13. stop chasing me!! 
14. brotherly love... awww.. 
From Mother's Day 2009

15. boys will be boys.
16. got you!
From Mother's Day 2009

i realized that as far as my skills go, manual mode isn't do-able when such ephemeral moments like these need to be captured. when i want to be artistic with "still-life" i will do manual mode. otherwise, it's full out automatic with pre-set modes. Learning to effectively switch lenses fast and composing a shot is another story HAHAHA.

  • canon Rebel XTi
  • canon 50mm f/1.4 with B+W UV filter
  • canon 70-200mm f/2.8 L with B+W UV filter
  • canon 580EX E-TTL flash
  • canon BG-E3 battery grip
  • magic, skills, and most likely luck...
conclusion: i need more practice for the wedding..

what's next: learn to use a video camera. i abandoned that hobby because equipment was overwhelming for me. canon GL-2 to be exact. stacks of mini-dv tapes and editing them gave me a headache. i'll practice some more and see what's in store for me..

Monday, March 16, 2009

Mt. Creek Pond Skimming 09

As a first time viewer, I was so giddy, I just kept firing shots... here are some highlights

1. My brother's equipment
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
2. Line at the Cabriolet
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
3. Thumbs Up! 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
4. Pineapple Bowling
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
5. My lil bro cheering from the sidelines
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
6. The Crowd on the other side of the pond
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
7. Hannibal Lecter Skimmer
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
8. The Wet Crowd
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
9. Soggy Fries
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
10. Judges 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
11. Rare Skier
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
12. Touch Down! 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
13. Retro Blue Guy
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
14. Woah! check out the faces of the crowd..
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
15. 610,514,108,109
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
16. Mad Hatter Skier 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
17. I'm OK!
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
18. ^__^
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
19. Donatello!
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
20. Hands Up!
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
21. =)
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
22. Switch Skier!
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
23. The prizes.. sans the wakeboard set.. 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
24. Creepy Wendy's Guy! winner of the wakeboarding set! 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
25. Judges Deliberate .. 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
26. Harlem Globetrotters Team! 
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009
27. Reggae Band! they played very awesome covers of pop songs.. so chill.. I seriously thought i was somewhere on the beach.. HAHAHA
From Mountain Creek Pond Skimming 2009

well, that's about it for now, just click on the link to the album if you want to see more.. HAHAHA.. enjoy everyone!