Letting Go.

the funny thing about mental health / psych nursing class is that we're suppose to recognize these things in our patients, however, the first step is to be aware of one's self. when i found myself reacting to the topics, i realized i had a lot of growing up to do. countertransference. watch out for that one. i was definitely caught off guard.

as a person who grew up with always having a plan: syllabi, itineraries, outlines, backups.. there are a lot of things I cannot control, but I'd like to be prepared. Even with trying to expect the possible outcomes, there's always that curve ball life throws at you. as i struggled to read through the pages of my psych book, i looked within myself and my past interactions. what did i do? why? how? did i miss out on a lot of opportunities? what did i say? did it match with what my face and body were trying to say? some ppl can read me. it definitely affects our relationship with everyone..

i just have to learn to let things go. some things i can never change. dwelling in it will destroy the balance. there's also the art of timing. there's a time and place for everything. come back to it some other time in hopes for a resolution. do things ever end? no not really. it keeps going. the decisions we make now, will affect what happens next. the ripple effect, right? i could be wrong, just a speculation.

i am learning to let go. react when i have to. pick my battles. my mental professor told me that i worry too much.. i shouldn't stress out so much. i took his advice and here i am. my neurologist thanks him. my neurologist told me i should go out, and not limit myself so much. HAHAHA. -=sigh=-

Consider your own life—how many times a day does some situation pop up that leads to moments of frustration and anxiety? Surrendering your head to your heart in those moments will lead you to balance and fulfillment. As you listen to your spirit, peace follows. So follow your spirit. Build your foundation in your heart. Love must be your innermost and spontaneous response towards every person you encounter. Say to yourself inside, "I just love." Use these words as a key to start the engine running in your heart and watch life brighten with new love and understanding. Surrender to your new awareness and let love unfold the purpose of creation to you. - Sara Paddison, Hidden Power of the Heart

loving people is what i do. and that involves a give and take. compromises. listening and surrendering. it's how we grow as humans. eventually we will reach the top of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs: self-actualization. everything will be alright. it does not mean i'm gonna stop caring, it just means i'll learn to back off and let you be. you have your own path, your own life. our paths will cross, and we'll see from there. right now, i'll just enjoy the moment and savor it. who knows what will happen next.. i sure don't; do you?

True love doesn't have a happy ending because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. - Anonymous