Life is for the living.

for my family. i cherish every moment i have with you guys.

i havent been able to truly focus since last Saturday. We'll see you again Mrs. G...

re-posted from my FB.

when my mind is pre-occupied, i tend to look back at photos/videos and mesh them.

it's one of those things that you dread while on vacation.. receiving THAT phone call.

it's a good thing I read "Tuesdays with Morrie" when I did a long time ago..

1. "After you have wept and grieved for your physical losses, cherish the functions and the life you have left."

2. “This is part of what family is about, not just love, but letting others know there’s someone who is watching out for them. Knowing that your family will be there watching out for you. Nothing else will give you that. Not money. Not fame. Not work.”

3. “As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away.”“Death ends a life, not a relationship.”

4. "So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

5. "The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."

hunnie, just do you.

(in a jersey accent of some sort) "hunnie, just do you!"

i think that was probably one of the best pieces of advices i've ever got from an ateh. it's one of those things only an ateh (older sister) can give. i am thankful. grateful, without a doubt. when i can sleep soundly at night, not focusing of what ifs, could've, should'ves.. that's a major improvement.. HAHAHA.. i finally got my 8hrs of sleep!!! oMG.


There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love - 1 John 4:18

insanity might have had something to do with it. lol. who knows. i'm already crazy for starting it and committing to it. so what else do i have to lose?? More pounds! HAHAHA jk jk .. ^__^ Day 17 and going. woOSh. I feel better, clothes fit better. I'm probably gaining muscle since my weight did go up from the initial -8lbs that i lost. well, weight doesn't matter, since my clothes fit better and i have a better endurance now. i didn't die the last time i played tennis. form was good, and I was actually able to hit especially since i havent picked up a racquet in over a year. for a person that couldn't hold the quadriceps stretch without toppling over, i can now safely hold my right foot back!! ^__^

picking my battles. letting things go. i'm more relaxed. calm. i'm not freaking out as much as i used to. i can't help but smile more often. a huge weight has been lifted!!


Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7

thank you, ateh. thank you. <3

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